It'd be easy for me to blame people for the way I feel most times, but I feel like it's ultimately my problem that I perpetuate. I can choose how to react to people, but I usually fall short. I have social anxiety, and I've felt this way for my entire life, but it's gotten worse throughout school and I just don't feel any connection with most people. I feel like every time I open my mouth or even type that I'm saying something wrong. It might be a lack of confidence, or it might be that I'm terrified of people most days. Maybe both.
I'm sorry if this post doesn't seem coherent, it's sometimes hard for me explain.
I am somewhat anxious at times but i just stand up to the plate and deliver when the moment arrives. It's all a head game and once you figure it out, a little bit of confidence goes a long way.
I had a smudge of confidence. Since I came to high school I lost it, due to idiots (who I know I shouldnt give a s**t what they think, but I cant help it.
Teachers tend to ignore me except about three, in P.E I feel uncomfortable because I'n uncomfortabe with my body do to people calling me big head and laughing when they think I don't see them
I have a few more friends but I dont think they would hang around with me intentionally..
It's the little things really. I'm beginning to get over it, but people are just idiots, I just blank it out.
O, and if I try and be funny I'm weird but if someone else does it it's hilarious.
High school sucks.
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ALSO i'm awkward when having a conversation, I dont like laughing because I dont like my smile, I dont want to reply incase I say something stupid because I'm awkward :/
