Keitara

but honestly? im not sure. i think its a mix of "good child" and pressure of parents ;; there are a few subjects i really enjoy, but i feel if i dont do well at the other subjects, i wont be able to get into college/uni/ whatever the hell i decide to do ;; i really wish i didnt have to go to school, or at least, i wish i could just do all my work in a room on my own ;;
im not sure, i think im aiming for the ending that i want? maybe the good ending for myself, but the normal ending for anyone else ;; i just want to be able to leave school and do things that i want to do, like it, comp sci, art etc, rather then do a path thats academic and considered "the best". i dont know what my dream is at the moment... i think my dream at the moment is like i said before; just to spread my wings and fly away into what i want to be, hah. i dont think that makes you a simpleton! if you dont mind me asking, whats your dream? and i agree, i think everyone should make their own way in life ;;

NONO IM NOT TRYING TO ;;; im just really worried that it will ;; ill tell you if you want to know, but i havent ever lied about anything regarding my age, so im not a 50 year old man named chuck LOL i do trust you, i just still am paranoid about telling anyone my age tbh... but i trust you a lot, so if you want to know ill tell you ;;
i feel like i have to focus on school, because i dont want to mess up, and i dont want the judgement from people and the gossip that would come from me slipping down... i actually was put in set 3- (it was mixed after set 2) and i didnt know how badly i had done ;; but i emailed my teacher and she agreed it was a mistake and i was moved back up to my old set, but it set off a ton of rumours that i got my parents to complain ;;

ah sometimes i forget english isnt your first language but thank you for talking to me, and thank you for being my friend. youve made me feel a lot better today! i think if i keep telling myself that ill be ok, and i keep pushing forward, then i'll do fine lets strive towards our goals of spreading our wings!!!

(also on a side note, you should ****ing do merch i stfg i would just B U Y it all)

ahhh what do you mean??? i dont wanna be bitter to you!! ;; but i guess so ;;;;; i dont have experience in suicide, because i really hate pain ;~; i just wanna die peacefully in my sleep or smth ;__; but i will try!!! we can both try our best together :') if we can both get through this painful time, then im sure we'll come out eventually!
ahhh im not good either ;; i def dont want children tho ;; hahahahah i dont think either of those are true, but thank you and my sister got top marks in the whole school -w- . but i think... i agree with you. im not my sister, i am my own person, and even if the person i am now isnt the person i want to be, ill be able to eventually. i think if i keep telling myself this, ill be okay!

HAHAH REALLY??? it makes me happy to ><
im looking forward to it for you!! and aha, you can anyway!!!
i dont tell my family anything to be honest, but then they get annoyed at me for being too secretive ;; if i said that to my parents, theyd get really upset at me and just guilt trip me so i feel really bad ;; and everything will be ok soon kei!!! hang in there !! fight!!! (tho, its a little ironic me saying this haha...)
ahhhh its like saying i should provide for them to visit, when id rather they didnt visit me anyway ;; and writing out of will is like basically disowning, saying that when they pass away i dont inherit anything...its basically like saying "you are not my child anymore" ;;
i think id be happy with my solitude ;; id be fine with skype calls and such, but what i dont understand is why my mother is upset when i say i want to leave when she basically abandoned her own family and hasnt spoken to them in 15 years+??

aaa are you sure tho?? i its rlly weird of me hahah ;;; can i call you kei-nee-san ahhhh me too to be honest ;; i feel like i am constantly dragged into drama i dont want, but its always a thing with me ;; friendships have been ruined because of it, and now i have to be super careful not to overstep what may be boundaries ;; but im glad you ended up talking to me in the end!!! im really glad we're friends

its ok!!! dont worry ;;
aha , maybe i should try it soon 'u'
nonon i dont think youre a loser!! i think youre an amazing person~ to me though, it didnt seem like they really liked you from what you said ;; but its ok to not realise! i realise now that i think i was clinging too hard to my friendship that ruining my school life. i was trying to hard to keep it going, but it should have faded away...
i think i agree. sometimes, i just wake up and have no motivation. i dont wanna get up, i dont wanna draw, i dont wanna read, i dont even want to eat (which is VERY rare for me haha, probably why im chubby hah) i just want to go back to sleep ;; but honestly, i dont know what i could have that motivates me ;;

dont worry about it haha ;;
i think family is something you should pick, rather then something youre stuck with because of who your biological parents are. you arent shoving your opinion on me at all!!
i agree, often parents arent the best to talk to ;;
for me, often when i go to teachers, they just tell me "dont you have any friends?" or "just pick any group" and its stuff like this that makes me almost cry... one time i was sitting alone after it started raining halfway through a netball tournament, and a teacher came up to me asking me where my friends were and it hit me so hard i actually had to go stand out in the rain for a bit so i wouldnt cry ;; and thank you ;; ill try my best!! tho babe lmao ;; i dont think anyone will ever call me babe, haha. its ok not to get them!! you dont have to~

dont worry about it haha ;;
i think family is something you should pick, rather then something youre stuck with because of who your biological parents are. you arent shoving your opinion on me at all!!
i agree, often parents arent the best to talk to ;;
for me, often when i go to teachers, they just tell me "dont you have any friends?" or "just pick any group" and its stuff like this that makes me almost cry... one time i was sitting alone after it started raining halfway through a netball tournament, and a teacher came up to me asking me where my friends were and it hit me so hard i actually had to go stand out in the rain for a bit so i wouldnt cry ;; and thank you ;; ill try my best!! tho babe lmao ;; i dont think anyone will ever call me babe, haha. its ok not to get them!! you dont have to~

(pming since its 4k characters, but please reply on here and not pm ;

i think i am a memelord, but i think im a lot like 707 in a lot of ways... im not gonna say bc its a spoiler, but some of his convos hit me hard because i know how he feels ;;
pls i have too many husbandos and waifus ;;
hEY NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT LOL
oh broken hearts i was typing with my phone at dinner
ahh, if you close down the app mid convo you can restart if you get a broken heart!!

omfg kei
but why does it have to be a guy LOL jaehee can wipe my tears any day hehe
i dont like crying in front of people either ;; i hate going on trips, because i dont have any friends in my year group, and in my school they group it on who they think are your friends ;; or like, in group work i dont even get put in groups any more by the teachers since they just assume ill work alone ;; like i get paired with people who hate me, or just general *****es, and theres usually situations like that for me ;; im so sorry it happened to you tho, you dont deserve it //hugs i would have struggled in that situation too ;; i almost end up crying every time we have to pick groups for stuff, because im always the one left on my own who has to get shoved into a group by a teacher, and then i feel really bad because i feel like a burden to everyone... its also awful in pe when im the last one to be picked, i feel like breaking down into tears every time ;;

;; its ok not to talk about it if you dont want to, i wont force you..
im not sure to be honest. in all honesty, i dont actually have anyone i can talk about this with irl... i think i open up a lot more online, and maybe its because online you can show yourself however you want, and change yourself easily or be exactly who you want, wheras irl you have to stick with things you made years ago...currently irl im stuck with a persona i dont want, and its like i cant be who i want to be... my irl best friend i cant really talk with, because i just never have, and i think it would be weird to, and my other friends im not close enough to. i cant talk to my family members either, because theyll just say "get over it" or send me to the doctors, and id do anything not to go there again.. i think youre actually really good to talk to about this stuff ;; i honestly really appreciate you trying your best, and it really does cheer me up

SORRY FOR LATE REPLIES I WAS TRYING TO SORT SOMETHING ;;
OH I KNOWWWWW SOMETIMES ITS REALLY HARD ;;; I WAS SO SCARED I HAD ****ED UP SEVENS ROUTE BY BEING TOO MEME-Y
LOLOLOL JAEHEE IS OK!! SHE ACTUALLY HAS NO ATTRACTION TO ZEN APPARENTLY its all 2 me
LOL ITS HARDDDD
and nO I HAVE EXPRESSED MY DISINTEREST INTO RELATIONSHIPS LOL
yeah idk why???
honestly for me im struggling a lot lately ;; when i wake up i just feel like crying because i dont want to wake up whatsoever, and i just want to go to sleep and never wake up... though, i think your messages cheer me up a lot!! but i still feel bad often, and a lesson today was so stressful for me that i almost burst into tears in front of the entire year group...
we have a lot in common anyway, sinpai :')
whaaa really??
oh no what it means is that you get </3, and too many will get a bad ending! you can get some tho and still be fine ^^
OOO TELL ME

ahhh nooooo you should look up the emails if youre struggling!! ;;
NO I REFUSE TO TELL HER WHAT ITS FROM L O L
YESSS I HAVE TAUGHT MY WIFE WELL
s u re you dont
i actually have tho
i mentioned boku no pico
got a infraction lOL
NO ITS FINE KEI LOL i get really deep after midnight and i dont know why?? lmao its why i tend to get really down in the early hours of the morning
I DUNNO
omfg
stop buying hg and spending it on calls LOL
are you sure?? dont stop tho, it cheers me up a lot ^u^
its not it doesnt have enough budget for glue sticks
nono i dont think it will??? youll just lose hearts ;;

lololol im not healthy at all LOL
tbh
yes.
NO thats me LOL
ahhh idk, it just might be assuming since ive never actually played his route ;; but i think i agree with that!! personally, whenever anyone reblogs it i ALWAYS read tags and ****, im super thirsty for reassurance ;; dont worry about it!!! i havent played his route yet haha

W HA T I HAVENT UPDATED IT IN AGES OMFG
I GOTTA UPDATE NOW
ahhhhh i havent really called anyone haha, i dont want to waste hg ;;
honestly you dont have to do this ;; i dont wanna make you do something ...
ahhh just a voltron one lOL like..im not gonna get in anyway but **** it
HAHAH YES IT WAS LOLOL it turns out the power line for an entire block was damaged, but it happened to be the IT block, so loads of computers are damaged and the servers only went up at like 9 am LOL
lol i just go with it, i remembered what characters like and dislike so i get better at it, and know what to pick lolol
ahhh i dont think it does???? i think its only actually if you have a certain about of hearts that determines normal / bad ending, but the good ending is determined by the emails lol
L O L I HAVE DONE THAT BEFORE BUT MY MOTHER JUST SHOOK HER HEAD LOL
she knows who 707 is now
due to the large quantities of merch
"did you buy more **** of that ginger **** again" DIRECT. QUOTE.

L O L ITS OK YOU SHOULD SLEEP ANYWAY
lmfao thank u sinpaiiii
i wanna sleep but
i wanna apply for this zine so i wanna make a big example ;;
i should sleep tho
since i have to get up early
since the school website is down idk what homework i gotta do LOl

i got good ends!! i did it all without a guide ^^
i get tonsilitis a lot?? no idea why LOL
YEAHHHH ITS STILL SOON ISH
yeah but like.........youre still lying on the tiddy tho????
yeah but
dont u want zen nip??
LOL DO IT
p l s im not that bad
well
not as bad as u
AAAAHHH NICE!!
lmao all of zens chats are

YES GOOD I LOVE WHEN I START A NEW ROUTE!!
ahhhhhhh ill be fine soon, i get sick really frequently LOL
dont worry!! ill play again soon huehuehue
NO IM NOT BUT LIKE...HOW DO YOU USE A PILLOW
DO YOU REST UR HEAD ON THE NIP NIP???
BARA TIDDY PILLOW????
get a zen ass mousemat
true, you are s i n pa i
also probably same
DO IT