hey what's up hello
so yeah, I'm an introvert. I can't make eye contact with people I'm speaking too, it's so weird. I'll look them into the eye for like 2 seconds then look away and do it again so they don't think I'm being rude, but it's so weird!!! How could someone stare at me like that?? I'm not even that pretty. I also have a hard time speaking in front of crowds, last year my English teacher would always have these things called Socratic seminars, where we would have to speak and argue about topics. I would stay silent , because I hate that the minute you open your mouth everyone's eyes would dart to you, and it didn't help that the other half of the class was watching you, criticizing how you talked and what you said. I don't raise my hand in class either, so my English feached made ME start off the discussion, and I failed so badly. I looked down at the ground and up at people like every other second, and my ears were burning really bad, I wanted to cry after that.
I'm also not good at social events, I'll go to school parties with my friends, but never end up having fun because there's so many people there dancing and I'm just standing there watching them. Also, my friends have a bunch of other friends, so I'm just following them around like a lost puppy because I have no where else to be. And then I end up texting my mom like 30 minutes to an hour before the event ends because I'm not enjoying myself. I feel out of place.
what's weird is that, once you get to know me, I'm super loud and crazy lmao. it's hard for me to make friends because I won't be the one to start the conversation, you'd have to start it or else I'll never talk to you unless I have to.
that was long, but I've always felt this and now I can tell people who are just like me!
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an introvert is someone who is extremely shy, they like to keep to themselves usually. you can look it up for a better explanation. An extrovert is the opposite of that, they are loud, confident and outgoing, and an ambivert (I think) is a combination of the two.