To hold yourself responsible, I see, and it does make sense. xD
Yes, I have this black boy cat. He's more like the youngest brother in our family than pet though~ He had chronic disease since right after being carried to my home and we spent over 3 years of sleepless nights and 1+ mil yen (crazy I know) to help him get over this disease. He's my life and all my love, hahaha<3 Well, I have another this kitten too since a few weeks ago. She has fur like marble caramel cream. Smart and very modest personality. But since she was ( and maybe still half is) a stray kitten, I'm always being held await, especially in the afternoon, to see her showing up at my home entrance. Now too actually.
Have you had mice or other pets?