You know like those things you did forever ago but still feel guilty about.
So for me, when I was little we had a cat that I adored. So one day I decided to give her a big hug and I squeezed her so hard that she squeaked.
I probably shouldn't feel guilty about it...but I do. I don't know anyone else know what I'm talking about?
There's many things I shouldn't be embarrassed about now, but one is back in kindergarten when we were all on the carpet and I think the teacher was reading to us, when the girl beside me was reaching over to the boy directly in front of me and tickling his back. We giggled a little, but then she punched him in the back. Since I was right behind him, everyone blamed it on me and I don't have a voice to say I didn't do it
I feel guilty about every single little thing that I do.
That, and I also feel embarrassed all the time.
Like if I brush my teeth and the sink isn't perfectly clean then I feel bad if I don't clean it.
If I use the microwave and it's not clean after I use it, I feel bad if I don't clean it.
If I leave m house and don't tell my mom and my cats goodbye I feel bad.
If I'm asked to do something and I forget it, doesn't matter what it was I feel extremely guilty, especially with my dad cause he yells at me a lot and I really hate it...
I also feel guilty if I'm expected to be good at something and I end up not being so good, like if I'm expected to get an A on my calc midterm and I only get a C+...
Canceling plans.
Being sick, cause I feel bad that anybody has to cover for me... (Is sick now but since we're having a fire and have limited people anyways I'm still working...)
I always feel guilty whenever people take care of me or actually show affection/are nice to me. I don't know why but I feel like I'm undeserving of it, regardless of how much I need it
In terms of past events... literally every embarrassing thing I've done since 2009
I've repressed all negative memories and guilt, i rarely ever talk abt it
i was mean to this kid in elementary school. i really regret it, one time i called him a cry baby. i would spill water on his seat so when he sat down his pants got wet. i was a horrible kid to him and i rlly regret it lmao
i wish i could go back and punch myself, i used to get bullied a lot and i think thats why i picked on this kid--no excuse, i really shouldnt have done it and if i could take it all back i would in a heartbeat.
when i don't eat something someone else had made for me.
i just have to eat it otherwise i won't ever be able to forget about it.
it would break my heart if i were to throw my lunch that my parents made for me when i was little.
Canceling plans on people and having them get mad at me for it. Sorry that I have a life and don?t want to hang out every single day It still makes me feel so guilty though.
Telling people I'm busy when really I just don't feel like hanging out. In a perfect world, we could just say " sorry, I don't want to right now" without it being offensive.
A literal metric ton of things, even spanning back to things I did last week. I feel guilty about damn near everything, really. That gives me a fear of doing anything, because I always think it's going to be the worst case scenario, which I fear. And yes, I am guilty about that.
The only thing that doesn't make me guilty is the Totino's Lifestyle
Being mentally ill... I constantly get mad at myself for the flaws I have that are caused by my mental illness issues, even though I know it's often out of my control.
When I hog the conversation, talking about my life, without asking the other person deep questions about theirs. I tend to put others before myself in life, so this makes me feel guilty if it happens. I don’t know if other people are just not as inclined to be an open book like I am (which is probably the case), but yeah.